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Friday, March 17, 2006
well well all is not well, all i cn say is tt mi and dear is now in a mess. we are messed wif our feelings, our probs and many many more. although getting results is a happy day for me, however this joy is such a short one, there will always be unhappiness coming along. me and dear hasen't been goin well for the past few weeks, in fact it is getting worse, i am not sure of the future ahead for us bt all tt i noe now is tt i really wanna clear the misunderstanding btw us. i love my dear so much and i wan him to be happy, i am not sure if he is still happy wif me ant, bt i noe tt i am happy wif him. actually frm the start i said all i wan him to do is to pei me wen i am at really bad times.
for eg, wen i quarrel wif my dad, i tink it was nt a gd experience for the both, i tink neither both of us wanna to go thru this kind of tink again. during the genting trip, frankly speaking i was really really happy! for the first time i am going on a holiday wif dear. he asked me b4 we went for the trip whether am i still excited for the trip, i rember tt my ans was ok. but in fact i was REALLY LOOKING FORWARD TO THIS TRIP!! i jus did not tell dear abt cos we were nt on gd terms at tt pt of time. dear probably tinks tt blogging is a tedious tink, however if this is our blog, at least he might blog it once or twice. i cn say for the past 6 mnths he has not blog until today tt he finally blog. shld i be happy??
i am not sure, to me blogging is a way for me to release stress, cos this is whr i cn express how i feel towards tinks, my love for dear and all tt. but i dun understand why dear see this as a chore?? is it so difficult to blog?? he cn spend so many hours playin maple on the internet yet he cant even take a few mins to blog or sometink. he is rite i dun expect him blogging everyday or wad, wad i wan is like saying a few words in our blog for like once in 2 mths, if he cn really do tt i will be so pleased. i noe tt dear has done many tinks for and i cn see it. everytink is all in my heart and i noe it.
i do not noe since wen i dislike toking abt my probs, i am sick and tired of facing this kind of probs, wen dear ask me to say i told him i really gt nothing to say, for this i meant it. so far all tt i have gone thru is too pain for me to say it once again, and go thru it again in my mind.. i hate tinking of all the suffering times and i dun wan to rember it anymore. all i wanna do now is to enjoy the times wif my dear and be happy all tt i cn.
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2:43 AM
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