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Monday, March 20, 2006
am i such a letdown, why does it seems tt everytink tt i do is jus not so rite... i mean it is like i am doin my best to make the people around me to be happy yet it jus does not seems they way i wan. dear's fren, jj seems to haf some misunderstanding wif me and we seems to haf a bad impression abt each other. i really hate this kind of tinks, worst still this is dear's fren. who noe in future i may still see him, as he is dear's neighbour and we may haf a chance to meet. i told caro, finally had a chance to tok to her, i told her everytink she gave me some suggestions or advice which i tink it is rite. she told me not to tink abt it anymore and jus dun bother his frens. now frm wad i noe is tt his frens misunderstood me and it now it seems tt they all dislike me, this situation seems so fimiliar, this is jus like wad my cousin in aust is facing too. the only difference is tt we are facing different pple and prob.
i understand tt being in a relationship there will be times whr couples might quarrel becos of frens. wen this prob pops up, the couple will start to feel the stress, cos u wouldn't noe wad to do, wen ur closest fren start to dislike ur gf/bf. this is the most terrible tink, the worst tink is tt if they misunderstood ur gf/bf u will start to haf headache, and so it will come a time whr u and bf/gf might haf to settle this prob. but wen u noe tt there is no solution to this prob, u will feel even more lost, this is the kind of feeling i am goin thru now. i am at a totally lost now. even though i noe tt putting up in this blog dear's jj fren might not get to see it, i will still say it.
to this jj fren of dear's, " i did not "diao" u, tt day, it was jus happen tt i lift up my head and i saw u there. frankly speaking i do not like pple looking at me wen i am eating, so i looked up to see. cos i noe i do not wanna see u eye to eye, so after taking a look at u, i quickly looked down, so frm tt time u probably tink tt i "diao" u. in fact i did not, i was merely looking at u not "diao" u. pls get this rite." the next tink is for the chalet, "tt day was true enough my result day and is it obivious tt i wanted dear to accompany, actually i was still pondering whether shld i let dear go ant. it was almost at a decision tt i shld let him go, until i had family problems, i was crying at tt pt of time. and it is only after my dad scolded me tt i asked dear to accompany me. this is the truth, u cn ask dear to clarify this whole tink. dear not being able to go for u and denny's birthday chalet, i felt really sorry and guilty there is nothing i cn do. i cn understand u all for being angry wif dear, all i cn do here is to help dear and me to explain the whole tink. if it is not for this whole tink to happen i probably tink we will not haf such misunderstanding. i sincerely apologise here!"
to dear, " i am so sorry for all tt has happen, the only 2 solutions tt we came out wif is to either break up or not to bother, the one tt both me and chosen is not to bother, since we haf chosen this i will respect it. and i will abide to our decision not to bother, but there is one tink i haf to say is tt u cant stop me frm tinking, there is no choice tt i will not stop tinking, in fact this tink will continue to be in my mind. it will only disappear wen we finally solve this prob, it is only wen i haf the chance to sit down to tok to jj and clarify all the misunderstanding. we cn only hope for this day to come and pray tt all will go well. dear i noe u still care alot for me, if not u will not do so much for me. i noe and cn see tt all u haf done for me. i really haf no wish to break up wif u.. cos i still love u so much, we all cn feel the strong love for each other, so i really dun wanna walk to the route of "breaking up" so pls let us work together to overcome and settle this prob. i will patiently wait for the day to clear all misunderstandings between me and ur fren. and by tt time we will definitely be truly happy and relieved."
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4:28 PM
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