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Sunday, July 31, 2005
My Darlink is SICK!!!!
OMG!!! i really got a shocked on fri... u told me tt you are sick and it might be dengue fever... i mean i was like so worried and my heart almost dropped out... u kept telling me tt you are very xin ku... i oso cant do anytink to help, i wanted to got there and stay beside you to take care of you... ur temp was like 38.4, 39++ might be reachin 40 i was so so worried... i hope you are feelin better....
on friday i accompanied you to the doc, i was like i hope tt it is nothing serious, luckly it was jus normal fever... i really hope tt u are eelin better now! been to ur hse on fri and took care of you i hope wadever i am doin now did helped you! cos i oso dun noe wad cn do now to make you feel better.... if staying beside you will make oyu feel better i am willing to do so until you get well... Dear you must get well soon ok... mon goin to start sch liao, haf to take care of youself ok! no matter wad!
Dear i jus wanna tell you... no matter how many quarrels we haf in the past, i oso dun care now many times i or you haf made each other angry, all i jus noe tt i still love you as much as ever.... and i noe tt you feel the same way as i do! Dear you must jia you ok! no matter wad u must get well soon ok! will be beside you no matter wad ok! i LOVE YOU
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Monday, July 25, 2005
this post has no title, cos i wanna it to be jus a post. this month is really a busy week for me and my dear, i have my own projects to do, he has his own projects to do. For him after the busy week he is free now! now he has one week holiday and here i am doin my projects and getting ready for my semestral exam.... so tough and stress for me now! actually i kind of regret the course tt i chose... it is so boring and not as easy as i tot. numerous projects coming and i dun seems to be able to see time where i cn rest. this is like OMG!!!! i am so busy, busy and busy. no time even to haf enough sleep. i tink almost everyone in my class also feels the same way as i do...
my dear has gone for his vacation, went for his fren's chalet. They are having a bbq on tuesday, too bad i cant make it. cos i need to prepare for my presentation and ica 2. i really wanna go but i cant la.. hehe. i noe dear will definitely enjoy wan! i tink he has been looking forward for this week to come, where he cn finally rest and enjoy himself.
For me, now i need to work hard and complete all my projects... this is the most major tink tt i haf to do now. the econs project is really a killer sub, if u get the wrong ans and i tell u tt's it man... i am so stress now! today is the only the first day not seeing my dear only and i miss him already. this sceniro is jus the 2 weeks holiday, wen i went to m'sia fot holiday...
hehe anyway i will haf to learn to be independent, for dear is not beside me. this is a good time for me to lose weight! hehe 6 days later i wanna slim down! my goal and target!
lastly Happy Birthday to Nisha!!!!!
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Wednesday, July 20, 2005
hey tml is finally the EOC presentation!!!!
i am so excited and i wanna it to come quickly.... i mean it is like we haf been preparing this since the start wen we receive the project. since we haf decided we went on wif the "video"idea... i am so excited abt it, i mean this is not an easy job man! so many tinks to do including, editing, preparing the props and also reharseral. so many tinks to do man, for this project i have been spending many late nights outside, reaching home at abt 10pm in the night. this kind of life has been like goin on for a few days already. it is so tiring man! i haven been goin to my grandma's hse to do happy and this is not a good tink. i tink almost for a week or so, i have not seen en wei. i miss her so much, and wanna play wif her again.... i really miss the days in my sec sch where i need not do so many projects, all i haf to do is jus to domy homework and hand in on time tt's all! i miss the life in my sec! but at the same time i oso like my poly life.... i get to noe so many pple and made frens wif them. i haf a click named the mc 6 and den get to noe better frens like, kethy, pat, li hua and charlene! so happy leh! both li hua and pat came to my hse to stayed and den i cn still rember we stayed up until very late to do it.
although all these tiring and busy tinks has been, nothing cn be compared to wad happen yest. it my my 5 month wif my dear darling! it was so happy in the morning, he came to sch and gave a big surprise. he held a bouquet of flowers in his hand and walked towards me! i was so shocked and happy at the same. so he asked lyn to bought it for me. at least he bother to ask lyn to buy. i noe guys like him wont noe wad to buy, so dear dun worry i cn understand ok! i love u dear the flowers were really nice. i tink this blog comtains both our happy and sad moments, he times tt we share... it was really a long long time. ok la... it wasn't consider short or long, but to me i tink this is forever! dear i dun wanna put the unhappiness in this blog, cos this is suppose to be a happy blog. but anyway i really LOVE tt FLOWERS and the WALLET!!!! it was really wad i wanted! i noe u spent alot this month, so we will try to save for the next month ok! i miss and love you so much! by the way HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LYNETTE! sorry cant really celebrate cos need to prepare the eoc presentation! anyway wish u all the best ok!
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Thursday, July 14, 2005
ENOUGH is ENOUGH!
i mean all this tt is goin on is enough... i really have enough of it... now i tink dear u must be feeling very sad rite... why did i pull u down to this man. i mean frm the start it has nothing to do wif u... but wad happen? i really dun noe, i am so sorry tt i made u lose a fren. i mean i really apologise for tt! i am so sorry! dear so much tinks has happen, projects is like nv ending and den my icas man! i tink i am goin to fail liao! please for me tt i cn pass all of it ok! i am so scared la! i really dun wan to repeat for the module again, this kind of life is sometink i nv wanna repeat it again!
the problems to mc 6 is nv solved, so wad if doro did say out that she mention "dale" to albin. i mean i oso wanna why did she say it? wad does it mean? i dun understand.... no one will noe the ans, and the ans to this qns is only doro who noes it. i tink this, will be a secret forever. i dun noe wad to say, all has been to awakard, i cant explain how i feel. i feel like i am the main cause of this whole prob and i am scared tt i am actually making a big fuss out of the whole tink. true enough, initally doro did made me really angry and this is true, i nv will deny this fact. i mean wad is done cant be undone. i really have no comments anymore! i give up, this prob is troubling us too much, and we the mc 6 cn say tt we have enough of it. even those who are gd temper are also fuming, so wad do u tink. this matter is getting out of hand now!
i really have no comments. i feel so guilty,dear where are u! i wanna share all my feelings to u! but facing u makes me feel so guilty. i dun wanna u to go back to ur sec life! i noe it has been a terrible one. and i oso dun wanna to see u being tied down r frenship probs like me. i wanna u to be happy!
calling out for mc 6! i need u guys too! i noe this is a tough time for all of us, i believe u haf tot thru how do u wanna face doro in future after u noe the truth. the truth is the truth, we all must learn to accept. and i believe mc 6 will still go on. this is sometink i wanna say it out loud, this is the time where i cn say we share " BOTH HAPPINESS AND WOES TOGETHER!" yeah! i noe this is nothing to be happy abt, but tink on the brighter side, hasen't this prob made us stronger? i tink so u noe, i believe this matter has made us see a clearer view of each other, cn say tt we has seen the true side of mc 6! maybe u all dun trust me but i tink this is so true! i dedicated this part of the para to mc 6! "WE ARE A FAMILY AND THIS IS A NV GONNA CHANGE TRUTH! I HOPE ALL OF US IS REALLY THE BESTEST OF FRENS IN THE POLY LIFE! MC 6! THANKS FOR MAKING MY LIFE IN POLY SO INTERESTING. NV TOT I WOULD HAF A BUNCH OF FRENS TT CN BE SO CLOSE! NV WOULD I TINK TT WE HAF TO GO THRU THIS TOGETHER! I AM SO TOUCHED WHENEVER I SEE ALL OF US SO UNITED TOGETHER! ALL THE MOMENTS TT WE CRY AND LAUGH! NO ONE CN DAI TI, MC 6 I LOVE ALL OF U AND U ARE LIKE SISTERS, I MAYBE THE MOST CHILDISH IN THE GROUP. BUT WADEVER IT IS I STILL WANNA SAY TT MC 6 WE STAND AS ONE, HEARTS ARE LINKED TOGETHER AND I CN PROUDLY SAY TT NO ONE IN THIS WHOLE CN SEPARATE US!"
tt's all for today and hope tt all probs cn be solved and tt we will go back to tt happy old days!
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Sunday, July 10, 2005
The cruelest tink on earth is the "TRUTH"
Truth has nv been the word in reality, "truth' will cause certain pple to be hurt and disappointed. "Truth" will nv be revealed until sometink happen, this sometink is the most hurtful words and they cn be killer words.
these few days mc 6 has gone thru the most terrible days, the few of us seems so scattered, we have of our own views and tinking. frenship problems and the so many tinks tt has happen, all is such a mess. i really dun noe wad to say and tt i hope tt tinks will return back to normal. since we all noe tt for this time period now we cannot go back to wad mc 6 used to be, the 7 of us so happy. cos we noe tt this is the reality and tt we cant escape from it, we used to as happy as ever, but cn this still be like in the future? this is a tough qns, i believe nobody in mc 6 cn ans tt. The main tink is tt cn we still accept her? We will help her to change, but cn it be an easy job? I noe it cant but I am sure tt we cn do a job k... i haf no wish to tok abt it an more i jus wanna forget abt and get on wif my life!
On the 8th july i am sure mc 6 had the most unforgettable day! cos it is a day where we cn put behind our troubles and enjoy ourselves! we prepared a seriers of surprises for carol! we hope tt she really did enjoe herself! hehe i am sure everyone in mc 6 did k! hehe this day cn never be forgetten!
firstly me and lyn were in charge of blind folding caro! den next we brought her to the sports hall toilet den there we start the splashing of water. tot tt we will not get it but in the end everyone got drenched! including both wei qi and lex oso got wet! of cos getting wet was not part of our plan, our plan was tt carol got wet and tt wen we are done wif splashing her den we will run away. however in the end we still got drenched. so we went into the accounts class in wet clothings. we sat on the chair and some cn still feel the water dripping k! anyway after lesson we cut the cake and den we gave carol her presents and a bouquet of flowers! this flowers were given to her on behalf of her boy boy! although he was not there, at least he still managed to give her flowers. upon receiving the flowers carol whole face was red and we all knew tt she was happy! hehe
anyway her boy boy says tt she will make up for her so not too bad. ok tt's all for today. dear this is how i spent my day on friday! will update wen there is more ok!
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Wednesday, July 06, 2005
tt sunday nite, an unforgettable one...
dear i miss u so much... the anger in my heart has appease already, toking to you on the phone on sunday nite really hurts me... i being angry wif u and u said the wrong tinks without asking me... i mean i was really hurt at tt time, i feel so wad u noe. this is actually a secret between the both of us, a secret is a secret and this mean only the both of us... but u broke this trust and told ur frens... u ask me why dun i scold u... i told i got nothin to say, at tt point of time i jus couldn't noe wad to to say to you. not sure is it angry, disappointed or sad, i am not sure at tt time, but sometink is sure tt i am really fuming tt nite... tt 's why my attitude tt day was really bad, my attitude towards u was terrible too... now reviewing back i tink i was gonna say tt u nv spare a tot for my feelings, u didn't tot of tt i maybe embarrassed noe... really angry at tt moment wen u say tt in conference tt nite wif ur fren. i was shocked and den u still cn chat happily and den leaving me there keeping quiet in one corner...
tt sun nite i noe i couldn't continue on so i say "if u dun put down the phone, i will!" den i put the phone down, and i kept quiet tinking thru and my tears couldn't control anymore and they start rolling down... it kept rolling down non stop and my heart is aching at the same time, the ache in my heart is so strong tt i dun noe wad to do but jus to cry... den i cried too much i till fell asleep...
At abt 4 am u called me, i heard u crying, my heart started to ache again. this time is not cos i am angry but is cos i heard u crying so sadly... my tears came rolling again.. u told me u blog from 3 to 4am but the internet explorer crashed and all ur efforts are gone, i noe u must feeling realy terrible... all the words and tots to me are gone... i noe how u feel but i dun noe how cn i help u... u told me u wrote a lot of feelings in tt post and all is gone... u also said u blog as u cried, at tt particular moment i felt so fortunate and touched, fortunate tt my first bf love me so much and touched tt u cried for me... dun tink u are useless i tell u are not! i tell u are the best and the one and only tt will do tt for me! this is the truth.
then suddenly ur words brought me from heaven to hell... u said "i bring colours into ur world of black and white, den now u brought the colours out of my life" i was shocked at this statement, pain enough to hurt both me and u... den u still continue on by saying, "tot u are the one nicest to me, but the last tink u say to me on the previous conversation " if u dun put down the oh i will!" really hurt me" i cn also tell u at tt time wen u said all this i was as hurt as u are... wad makes u tink the words tt u say to me didn't hurt me... i was equally hurt as u are... den i could still i said i didn't wan to meet u on mon, cos i need time to tink over. i mean i was jus tinking only wad... doesn't mean i will honour it rite... den ur sms to me really so sad noe, asking for my forgivness, i mean yes no matter wad i will stil forgive u wan... "Breaking Up" has never appeared in my mind, u said u are prepared for it, i mean prepare wad? there is nothing for u to prepare cos i nv tot of breaking up... i still love u as ever and this will nv change, even till the end of the time! so no worries!
Till yesterday, u ask me whether u wan wanna meet for lunch, i said ok.. den in the morning i met caroline, she asked me wad i looked so sad den i told my prob wif u. as the form of respect i nv told her anytink i jus told her tt i was really angry wif. den after lesson went to FJ, tok to lynette, again my tears couldn't control again and i started tearing. si yan came back wif her food and ask me if i am alright... to Si yan "thanks for the concern!" went for a walk wif lynette and i asked her if i should forgive u, den i tot thru the tinks tt we went thru and wad u did for me, i mean if u dun love me so much, u will not bother to wait for 6 hours and cry for me too... i mean yes i am touched!
so i decided to forgive, had an heartfelt tok wif u and den i am not angry anymore. really tt is the truth! jus wanna tell u "there should be no more again ok! one more time and i tink i will be more cruel den this ok!" (* cos i noe u wont!*) as for ur frens i will see how tinks goes by ok... let nature takes it course!
To my dear lao gong!
u said all your efforts are gone den me now at the internet and web lesson blogging, to help u back with the 300 sentences of tt u wrote to me... this one is for u! I LOVE U DEAR NO MATTER WAD AND THIS WILL NV CHANGE, U TOK TO ME ABT OUR FUTURE HSE AND I CN SEE TT TOO! DEAR I NOE WE MAY HAF QUARRELS IN THE FUTURE, BUT I BELIEVE TT WE CN RESOLVE ALL THIS IN NO TIME! I HAVE FAITH IN THE BOTH OF US OK! dear this is the longest blog i haf ever blog and i hope tt this will kind of help u in the blog tt u couldn't blog on sun ok! take care dear and rember to sleep well ok! hope tt wen u read this blog u cn feel the way i feel! I LOVE U DEAR LAO GONG!
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