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Wednesday, September 07, 2005
Actually i dun noe wad to do so i decided to blog... all have been well until yest my mum and sis said sometink. i really dun noe wad to do now... their words made me so sad... they jus dampen my spirits... we were suppose to go and eat seoul garden tml, but it was cancelled. The reason was becos of me. i am sick and i still cant eat those heaty food, and i cn only eat plain food. Today i only had plain congee and some cai xin for both lunch and breakfat, even if there is more food i oso dun feel like eating...
Rite at this moment, i dun noe wad i wan to do, maybe the besttink for me to do now is to cry. but i cant seem to cry out. wad to do, why do tinks always haf to turn out this way... i am so lost... no one at this point of time can seem to ans my qns. really nothing cn help to brighten up. i am too upset to tink or do other tinks. other den watching tv, i really cant find other tinks to do. i jus wanna CRY OUT! wad is stopping me? i wanna cry out so tt i cn feel better... i noe myself too well i noe i am running away frm reality, but cant they jus let me be childish for once.
i have been sick and down wif asthma, i wasn't upset at all cos i noe dear would be there to look after and support. i was nv afraid of it at all, even though there were times my asthma made me breathless and weak, i really was not afraid at all. i nv tok abt my family in my blog at all. cos i believe every family has their own probs. if i were to rite all them down den i tink it owuld take me years man...
Cn someone tell me wad cn i do to make myself feel better. i am so lost. okok tt's all...
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8:49 AM
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Tuesday, September 06, 2005
I am SICKKKK!!!!
So sad hasen't been well for the past few days... i am having my asthma again... hiya den i made my dear so worried and i feel so bad... looking at the photos tt kethy took frm the chalet... many memories came following back... although we did haf some misunderstandings, we still enjoyed ourselves... we had a lot of fun, laughter, peace and joy. see i am coughing again.. each time i cough it is so bad... oh no! i cant really enjoy myself.. so sad la... hiya i dun noe wad to do now so tt i cn get well soon... please cn someone help me i wanna get well soon but it seems to be gettin worse... oh no!
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9:31 AM
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Monday, September 05, 2005
mi dear is SICKKKK!!!!! she is down with asthma due to the weather change and all the people burin incense paper.......so woried.....haiz....long tym no blog liao....nw mi dear is bside mi and she ask mi to blog....so i did.....was too woried abt her to conc.....nw she is lyk so dizzy....lyk wan to faint liddat....
yesterdae she felt so bad tt she fainted in the lift on the way hme....she is so sick nw tt every little tink triggers her asthma.....even being inside a stuffy lift makes her feels bad.....nw she hao lian try to do sit-up den realise tt she has no strength to do it....woried woried woried....tiz few daes i m so woried....tt tym i sick she took care of mi nw itz mi turn bt mine wasnt life threatenin bt her may cause her to lose her life....
haiz....nt even tinkin ok liao.....she is sick n i haf test so i cant b wif her....so so woried....she tell mi tt she ma bcum a burden to mi in the future bt i dun care....she is the oni 1 i luv......i juz wan to c her happi den i m hapi le....
although alot of bad tinks happend, there is oso a piece of gd news....2dae, on 4th of Sep 2005, mi n mi dear went to get her nintendo DS n nintendogs, a game....she seems so hapo plaein it....although she din tell mi, i noe tt she is actualli v heartache abt the money she saved....haiz........
aniwae, she alwaes lyk to put a brave front in front of mi bt i can c her hands shakin when she holds her chopsticks to eat yoshinoya yesterdae......bt she tell mi alot of tinks tt i noe is nt true....lyk she ok or tt she is fine.....realli hope she gets well soon......dear i luv u!!! dun wori...even if ur asthma is a lifelong illness i will still luv u as much if nt more den wad i luv u nw!!!!
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12:32 PM
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